Jeeves' Diary

Some women on earth should be written in Rare Species Book and be protected. One of them is my friend's wife. Just known he finally came back to her. He is 44, had 2 kids of 16 and 5. Before, he had been living for 4 years with his lover – a 24, childless selfish camerondiaz-like bimbo. To say nothing of his previous numerous infidelities while living with L, his spouse. I knew that L had known most of these. I know it cost her lots of nerve.

Back to these years, I remember 2-3 long evening talks in my kitchen. I remember as she came to me first as my being his friend, frustrated of his treatment and asking me for help. She felt desperate.

L was always pretty. By then, she was a female of 34 - slim, long-haired, with hazel radiant eyes and warm voice. L is intelligent and tactful. Good mother and caring wife. That time I've been thinking in myself: ' Need to be a complete fool, to disrespect this attitude to you. He really is. Whatta hell he wants. If I were him, I felt absolutely happy with her -'

Later on, we picked up sensitive topics. Like sex. L was very sincere, she told he felt completely satisfied with her. She were talking me the things that shocked me- I never imagined the details she revealed of the man I had know many years that he's capable of – abuse, humiliation, slapping her right before their children's eyes. It affected me doubly as I was his best man at their wedding ceremony before.

I emailed him 2 times. Then talked to him next face-to-face. But all was in vain. He left L and run away to his lover.

All this time L had no man. In physical sense. She felt lots of attention of others men. She refused them and kept loving him. One day she gave me a call - asked me to fix some soft in her notebook, then came to my home. We were sipping coffee as I cautiously inquired of my – well, ex-friend. She made a sigh. ' It is the same. No change.' - ' Well, - said I-. Now I see it. It is clear. It is is over.' - ' 'No! - she almost cried.' - ' Calm down. It is over. I know this. And you know this. Look. You are beautiful, kind, unselfish woman. Full of life. Good mother of your children. You should not be alone. You need a man that loves you. You deserve to be loved and cared for. Nobody reproaches you if you decide to look for your pair. ' - She was silent, then said: ' You must be right. Just I can't. I don't know what it is. Must be foolish of mine, whatever strong the pain I feel he hurt me, I love only him. Dunno why. I'd love to love some other, but I can't. I hardly imagine other man touching me…' - I said: ' We all are humans. We feel sexual attraction.' - ' Of course I did! But I know – I know it firmly – I would not love some one other. Whatever fine sex were, it would make me feel disgusted next for the fact it'd been done just to substitute the love I needed. So it'd better stay alone to me. The way my memories hold me back. I can fight it, but I don't want to do. I know ' it's freaky way' as many would say. Mustbe so. But I ask myself 'what about it is true? I mean, that I feel inside, it is true.'' She sighed, looked at me and said: ' Pity, you and me did not meet before. Sure, we'd be a nice couple' .- ' Yeah, - said I, – I think just the same.'

Her husband or my ex-friend came back a few months later after that talk. He said he felt ashamed and asked her to forgive him. Honestly, I don't really know if he finally changed. I just hope so. I do respect L for her being a Woman.

Calling up stories like that and some others, gives me a lot of thoughts from ' the worse you treat someone the more you would be loved - to ' aspects of female family psychology '. But – well, what about sudden miracle in someone's life - a really rare fantastic specimen from Book of Rare Human Species. Kinda God's gift, that you might not even worth accepting. Beautiful, loving, unselfish, merciful. That never leaves you. Never betrays you. Whatever you treat it, it forgives you. Because it loves you and only. What about you -

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